My, my, my.

Another year has gone by,

and this just means....

*drum roll*

My blogger account is most likely a year old?

But that isn't why I'm writing a blog today.

In the age old tradition of blogging about Hunter Burgan's birthday (which I had only done once prior to this occasion.)

....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUNTER!

Hope you have a wonderful day.

Meet a friend!

Isn't it funny how sometimes you just bump into people? Well I think it's funny!

Here I was, having a bad day (as I wasn't in the happy zone) and then out of the blue; in the place I least expect it, my friend and I come across each other! I wonder what it looked like to my mother and her friend when we ran up to each other and just gave each other a big hug (nawww!!).

I had realized that I had not seen her in almost a week and a half (school holidays tear people apart *tear*) and what a surprise it was. If you had recorded us the moment we recognized each other and played it in slow motion it would have looked like this:

*straight face > slightly confused > dumbfounded > surprise > big toothy grin > happy faces

Now isn't that a cause to laugh at? Sadly directors of movies sometimes do not recognize this as the way an actor should act when acting for a scene somewhat like this. Then again, they do have other things to worry about now don't they?

Expressions of happiness to commemorate the lovely couple

Here are some images that I had taken time to draw for the couple mentioned in my previous blog. So cute!!

Two Days of Fun and Watching Love.

Have you ever had those days were you are having so much fun fooling around with some great friends and then everything just seems to crash down on you because you thought of something deep and possibly saddening?



Well that happened to me this evening. But I guess I shouldn't look at the glass half empty, but rather half full. My friends are deeply in love - it's so sweet to watch them hug and kiss each other (even if at the time it is very awkward) and I feel deeply happy for them. Deeply. This feeling just all bubbles down to my protectiveness (the mother in me) over my friends; especially the ones to whom I really care about; but that is beside the point... I just couldn't get my mind over the fact that I was actually alone. The other person that was with me had a partner. There was a couple right in front of my eyes and I was just by my lone little self.



I have to admit I felt jealous. I felt sad. Yet I was happy for them? Does that make me a good person? But I guess that isn't the question now.



I was jealous and sad that I didn't feel this 'love' that my friends felt for their partner. I came to the realisation that I had never really felt real love. Maybe I had but I had never actually been loved in return (love and loved working as one). Yes I had been loved by another, but I didn't return that love, I couldn't feel it; and the person I love is out of my reach. Way out of my reach.



Now the question I wish to ask myself is; why am I letting this simple emotion make me feel this way? Is it because it is one of the most searched for emotions in the universe. Or was it because I loved others too much and felt no recognition towards that affection. I guess I am hurt that I had somehow put this idea into my head that nobody loved or cared about me. Like a mother who had just been told that their child hated them. That hurt.. Deep and shattering.



Why can't I be loved? Or atleast feel loved?

z0mg! It's Hunter's birthday! YAY

Well it's Hunter Burgan's birthday. EVERYBODY CHEER!!! =D

I say it's his birthday now because.... It's like 4:24 p.m. here in Sydney... OH WELL XD